of battlefield

I cant think of any better title for my entry. What I have in my mind now is everything about exam "my battlefield"

Maybe you think it is a bit kind of exaggerating but dude seriously i feel like I am on my way to a battlefield, but for now I am just preparing all kind of armor. This period is one of the most stressing period ever. I never feel like this in any other season. Well I can actually recall this feeling, during my SPM examination.


You know there's a lot of consequences happen to me if I fail. mean :

1 ) I cant go home on summer holiday ( the scariest part ever! ) I dont wanna spend my whooolee summer here. The heat is so unbearable.

2) and of course I wanna see my family and friends back at my hometown.

3) If you have better place to stay for a holiday or 215675217689 times better than place you are now which one you prefer? of course the better one right?

4) tell me WHO IS WILLING TO GO TO CLASS DURING HOT BOILING SUMMER?

5) plus.... I have a scholarship to maintain. you know, I must get good result every semesters, maintain or increase my GPA or else, the state government cut all of my expenses and who is going to pay my study fees? not my father or mother of course! I've been depending on their money all this while since I was born. So let me use "my own" money.

well all those mentioned things above might sound like I study because of "something". I mean I sound more like I-study-because-i-dont-wanna-fail-and-i-wanna-go-home-on-summer. NO actually, I study because of the knowledge itself. but i just dont wanna fail on this battlefield....

The nature of world thought us that failing is actually something horrible, something which you cannot be. Because they dont wanna start all over again. They cant face the burden of starting all over again on the new pages but with same routine. But you know, actually and honestly I never look down on those who ever fail. I never think that they are losers or whatever. No luck for them maybe?

eventually i figure out that, me, myself just like the others. terrified by the F word because of I dont wanna start all over again.....

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dan seperti biasa aku akan mula menulis blog ketika aku rasa memerlukan, dan padam sekiranya aku tidak memerlukan.

final exam sem 4 kurang dari sebulan dan pada masa ini juga keinginan untuk ber-blog itu membuak-buak datang.


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my little sanctuary

hello there..anyone

so i write my blog again after several trials including my rebranding project. But failed. Lack of time, or maybe i am not a very good writer. Yea seriously i'm not a good writer. I used to be before but now nope.

I want to give another try. Less words more pictures or videos. Everything is from my camera which from my surrounding. About anything. I delete all of my previous posts for a new start. New beginning.

You are very welcome to read or comment my posts. I hope you enjoy reading my little tiny blog :)